nothing will ever be good enough

WOD: 3 partner team/ 14 min AMRAP
            2 wall balls 20#
            1 rope climb
            4, 6, 8, 10, 12.....

Run: 1 mile sprint

It's Monday evening and I have found myself sitting in front of the computer. Mostly, because I don't want to watch Little Mermaid for the millionth time.

I debated going to the gym tonight. I could have stayed home and ran on the treadmill but I tricked myself into thinking that being around others would make the miles go by quicker. As soon as I entered, I saw the workout and the rest is history. I was on that mat and doing the group stretch in about 90 seconds. Addicted. I did manage to get in a quick mile at the end.

The last couple of weeks I have been doing some self reflecting. I am really hard on myself. I don't know if it's OCD or Type A personality or my ESTJ Myers-Briggs type...whatever the reason, I am never satisfied. Something can always be done better and more efficiently. This isn't just at the gym. This attitude pours into every aspect of my life. At work as soon as a project has been completed, I'm already trying to figure out how long I can wait before the next version. At home, my house is never clean enough, the yard is never manicured enough, the shrubs need trimmed every day, the windows have streaks, and so on. And then there's the gym. Oof.

I have often wished that I could just be satisfied and happy with the current status of things. I clean my house every weekend. I dig out weeds with my bare hands. I pour my mind into my job. I stress school, performance, attendance, effort to my kids. I go to the gym 5 days a week. I run at least 4 days a week. Can't I reflect back on a week and just be happy? Can't I take a day and just rest? Can I sit back and say, "I'm doing a good job."  I wish it were that easy. But, it's not.

Is that okay? Absolutely. When things start to become "okay" or "just good enough" they slip. Goals become reevaluated, diets begin to fail, housework slips, jobs become status quo and the gym is no longer the routine. Striving for continuous improvement is motivation. The drive to always want to be better gives the sense of satisfaction. It's okay to never be satisfied. It's okay to want more.

{Side note: I do expect a lot from my children. But, I do take the time to enjoy their accomplishments and praise them for a job well done. I embrace the time I have with them when they are so small. I am satisfied every day by the things they teach me and the way I see them interact with others.}

Katie and I sporting our competition t-shirts in front of the gym Christmas tree after our WOD!
BOOM-SAUCE!