opting out of Thanksgiving

WOD: 3 rounds for time
            14 chest to bar
             7 snatches

*If I counted every time I fell on my butt, I probably did an entire extra round of snatches. But Ken did tell me, if I'm falling down, that means I'm getting under the bar. I guess I am making some progress.

This afternoon we invited some friends over to watch football. I decided that I was going to make this yummy paleo pizza. Well, I never cook. I usually will make something if it has less than four ingredients. The pizza had 2 steps and required kneading the dough, cooking it ahead of time, cutting up food, blah blah blah. By the time the pizza was actually finished I was so hungry I could have eaten the entire thing by myself. AND, I was tired. I just don't get how people can find cooking fun. Thank goodness my family is used to boring bland food.

The pizza and bacon wraps turned out to be delicious! Everyones favorite football team won and the beer was cold. Success!

Early night.

Strength?

WOD: Run 800m
            21-15-9
            Burpee, Box Jumps, Pull Ups

So, a few days ago I was pumped for this next competition. I think it's going to be fun and totally relaxed doing it with a friend. So, I'm talking to my friend about the competition and the conversation is:

D: So, I can probably do about 20 hand stand push ups, butterfly pull ups and don't worry, I will do all the pistols. What do you think will be your strength?
Me: ummmmmm..........

What is my strength? What is the one skill or the one lift that I can do really well? I have NO idea. (insert lack of self confidence here). I can do everything "ok" but nothing "great" so here we are back at square one.... scared out of my mind about a competition I probably have no business being a part of. Why do I do this to myself!?!?! Gesh.

Then, I go to the gym and Rick says, "Jenn, I tried 300 again and didn't get it." Talking about the video I posted a couple weeks ago. He was still determined to get it next time.

So, I guess putting this into perspective, I will keep doing the best I can. I will find my "strength" in something determined to keep trying.

Skill work: Snatch
                   HSPUs

Practice makes perfect, right? I spent 90 minutes yesterday doing light snatch work. I need to probably spend that much time every week practicing that movement. Plus, I had a really hot trainer working with me. He knows a thing of two about snatches.

Meal plan: I'm starving. My calorie intake is barely 1200 calories and I'm consuming less than 17g or carbs a day. How can I even stay awake?!

Today, I have three mini Twix bars in my hand and I put them away. Who ever thought that would happen?!

Keep on keepin on, I suppose!

WOD: w/ a partner:
           100 hollow rocks- choppers- dball slams
              75 sit ups- 1 armed kb snatch- wall balls
              50 goblet squats- t2b- dball cleans
                * props to my partner, Katie. She pushed me. I'm feeling it today!

I started my new 10 day meal plan Sunday. Yesterday was the first full day. I'm not sure what is going on but my stomach is killing me. I didn't have bacon the last 10 days so maybe it's just in shock from the grease. Who knows. I'm also still really hungry. I went from forcing food down to now being hungry after each meal. I'll give it two more days before I claim something needs to change. I've also gained weight. I keep telling myself that I'm in the "bulking" phase!

Speaking of weight. This has been on my mind since Saturday. I say a lot of things in a day and walk away from a conversation thinking, "Did I say the right thing?" or "I hope it wasn't taken the wrong way..." or "Why didn't I just shut my mouth."  Most of my feelings stem from my urge to feel the need to talk, constantly, but never to intentionally hurt someone.

Recently, I heard a conversation between two ladies. It was in a group setting with probably 6 other ladies around the circle listening. Someone complimented her on how great she looked. Instead of the "thank you" (like we all sometimes fail to say), it turned into a conversation about how she has gained some weight back and it would be okay if she were ### and as long as she stays under that ###, it will be okay. A few people laughed and a few people agreed. Instantly, I looked around the circle at the group of ladies listening. Every single of one those women were beautiful, not out of shape, and certainly not overweight. I know for a fact that half of the women worked out on a regular basis. Now, I'm not an expert on guessing the scale, but I am almost certain that maybe only one of those women was under the weight that this gal was going on and on about as her goal.  How does that make others feel? (Maybe like, "WTF! I work out 6 days a week, sweat my ass off, eat right and I'm 20 pounds from that number.") Does she start to reevaluate her body composition? what society thinks? More importantly, what her friends may think? I rolled my eyes and didn't say a word.

Why do we focus on the scale? Why do we constantly set ourselves up for disappointment? How do we change that behavior? I'm just as guilty... But sometimes hearing it out of other people makes me realize how ugly my mind can be and how shallow my thoughts can be spoken.

I wear my CF socks to work. I always like to be prepared. You never know when I'll have to climb a rope or deadlift something ;)

gone too long

Man, oh man! I have been away from the blog for a few days. Which also means, I have been away from the gym for a LONG time! There's no excuse, but I did have a great trip over the weekend visiting with lots of friends and I was moving around and on my feet for most of Friday and Saturday. So...

I heard back from Josh about my next 10 days of food. I have a few more vegetables added in (carrots, kale, squash, zucchini), less coconut oil and a little less meat. I hope this does the trick. I'm getting antsy about results.

Last night I portioned out all of my food for the week. I made little 1 ounce burgers so I will know exactly how many I have to eat for breakfast and dinner. Less thinking during the week is usually a good thing.

Excited to go to the gym tonight and even more excited that football is almost over and my routine can get back to semi normal.

minus the bud light ;)

I've done it again.

Yes, we were running here. Not crossfitting.
We can only pray that there will be running
in the competition!

WOD: 100 squats
             75 sit ups
             50 burpees
              1 C&J EMOTM
            15 min cap

Strength: push press

I have signed up for another CF competition. This was will be different. Kinda. First, my partner is awesome. Dianne and I were originally going to partner with our husbands and have a male/female team. Of course, that would be sold out. So we went with the next best option: female/female team! We will get the WODs the Wednesday before the competition so I guess we can come up with a stragetgy to determine our strengths and areas for improvement.  The upside to this is I will continue to push myself at the gym knowing that this is around the corner.

This weekend I will need to exercise massive control. I will be at Heidelberg for a reunion and with all of my friends. I will go armed with my coconut oil and almonds and pray that everything works!

It's the freakin weekend baby......

WOD: 21-18-15-12-9-6-3
            Deadlifts
            DB slams

In my moment of weakness, you are going to hear me complain....

I have finished my 10 days worth of meals. I'm still eating the same thing for breakfast, lunch and dinner for 10 days in a row and then I email Josh and we make changes. Well, I'm on day 13 of eating the same thing anxiously awaiting an email in my inbox from Josh. I'm like a young child at Christmas. I can't wait for it to arrive. I will send a gentle reminder this afternoon.

I'm eating my lunch right now. I have resorted to eating with my fingers as utensils are hard to come by in my office and the thought of having to cut all of the meat takes away from my Internet browsing time. So I sit here ripping apart pork chops with my teeth while holding it in my bare hands. Attractive, right?

I am results driven with little to no patience. I'm functioning off of little sleep (7 hours for me is not enough), sick of the food I'm eating, and I want something to change NOW. Make no mistake, I'm not giving up. I'd just like there to be a sign of change. I've been committed. SOMETHING needs to happen. If the scale isn't going to move, I'd better be shooting for some 15# PRs.

I know I'm just at a low point. Instead of being Debbie Downer, I think about what I would tell my best friend if she said this exact same thing to me? Keep your head up and keep moving. SO, that's just what I'm going to do!

Good news. Did you hear that PaleOMG! and Civilized Caveman are coming together for a cookbook?! Delish! I can't wait.