WOD: 5 burpee bar jump overs
           10 WBs
           3 minutes rest
           max S2O in 90 seconds


This was my second time doing this WOD to see if my score was any better. I regret to post that it actually got worse. I felt like I had the flu. I rested on the ground and my head was spinning. A similar feeling I get when I am drunk and need to pass out. I had a few people say I might have been dehydrated.

I have this competition on Saturday. I'm not really that excited. I'm not nervous and I'm not anxious. I just want it to be over. I'm mad for allowing myself to let others make me feel like I'm not good enough. I control how I feel and it needs to stay that way. I know I give 100% and I know what I'm capable of giving. That's all I can worry about.

This too shall pass.....

Monday, Monday, Monday

WOD: 7 hang snatch
          15 ohs

I took a picture this morning of me with my Spark. I thought it was funny that my drink matched my shirt. I'm not 100% sold that Spark does anything great but it does keep me away from Diet Coke.

Last night I worked with my team on the competition workout. It was possibly the worst 90 minutes of my life. I have never "crossfitted" for that long except for Murph and that was only 59 minutes!

Saturday I was able to get in my morning WOD and then run 4 miles. It felt great and I'm looking forward to the weather warming up so I don't need the motivation to go outside!

I'm going to take it easy at the gym this week. Need to save my fuel and muscles for Saturday!

WOD: TABATA:
            burpee bar jump overs
            kb swings
            sprints
            dips


I have been trying to clean up facebook. By clean up, I mean, untag or delete pictures that have been out there from eons ago. I've also attempted to control my privacy settings. I can across a picture from a Diaper Relay that I was on. It had to have been one of the best events. The entry fee was a box of diapers. We were split into teams and we had to race the teams with a stroller and baby and do different things at the relay stations. I can only imagine what people in this neighborhood thought of us running around outside in January with baby strollers flying all over the place! Good times.

Side note: I'm already planning a CF Relay between houses in my neighborhood for this spring. It should be fun!

a sign!

I just finished my post about hating the white board and this article pops up in my news feed! It's a sign from the gods ahhhhhhhhhh

I have nothing to prove to anyone. I have everything to prove to myself."

Strength: 4x3 @ 90% Bench press

WOD: 3 PullUps & 3 dips
            (wide grip, inside grip, alternating grip x2, close grip)

             3 Rounds:
             15 Pull Ups
             30 Burpees
             60 DUs

I have a love/hate relationship with the white board at the gym. At our old gym the trainer would write your name on the board and you had to shout out your time when you completed the WOD. It was kinda cool to let everyone hear and to hear how other people did. Once the gym grew, the stopped and the board was all self reporting. It came down to people standing around during the WOD and counting reps of other athletes. (Seriously, who has time for that?!)

When we moved to the new gym, they have different codes and colors. I would be lying if I told you I understood what it all meant, because after 7 months, I still haven't figured it out. I love the board if it makes people happy to showcase their PRs and if they felt like they had a good WOD. I hate the board as a way to compare yourself to others. It's just me. I don't like the justification that "we put our name on the board we we can compare how we did to others" bullshit. I am not going to compare myself with others. There are a lot more factors that go into a WOD than just the time. I'm not going to the gym to compare myself to others. And I don't want my time/weight to BE compared to others. More importantly, DON'T ask me. If you want to know, look at the board. If my name isn't there, assume I didn't do it. Don't ask me to make you feel better about yourself.

Maybe I have lost the spirit of Crossfit. Maybe I never had it. I go to the gym for one reason: to make myself better. When I pick a weight, I do it for myself, not because the person next to me. I have nothing to prove to anyone. I want to prove everything to myself.

So, if the white board is for you, go at it. Check it out, compare, compete, push hard. I'm still the one running out when the workout is finished pretending like I forget to write it down.

I changed my mind.

WOD: 5 Rounds
            15 OHS
            60 DUs
            *killed it!


For the last, well... all of Connor's life, I have stood my ground on one rule. I will not fix more than one meal. If you don't like what I am fixing for dinner, you eat what you like and be done with it. I'm not sure what sparked me to feel this way. I followed all of the "mommy how" books. I nursed for a long time (not hippie long time, but close), didn't introduce fruits until after the veggies had been in diet for a couple months and pureed table food that we were already eating. I can remember a time that Connor begged to have an apple on the table and the lady snapped at him because it was a decoration around all of these iced sugar cookies!

The older the kids get, the hungrier they become. I don't snack as much as they do and because they eat lunch at 11am and get home starving at 4pm, our schedules are a little messed up.

Last week, Connor and Parker started making "requests" for different dinner food than what I was preparing. Before I said no, I thought about what we had in the house to eat. They both requested good and healthy alternatives to what we were having. So, I made them what they wanted. I'm not sure this is such a horrible habit after all. It's not like their alternative is a peanut butter and jelly sandwich or a bowl of cereal.

If giving them choices gives them ownership and control over their food to make better choices when I'm not around, so be it.

Breakfast (protein pancake and bacon), Lunch (turkey, cashews, avocado), Snack (Spark*)

time with friends

My family spent the day with wonderful friends. We woke up to a Level 2 snow emergency (which really doesn't mean much), packed on our gear and headed outside to sled! After 5 hours of that we went and had dinner with some other friends.

I wish I had more time in my life for friends. I needed every minute of yesterday. I am NOT an alone person and I just feel so re energized amongst others.

My little snow bunnies were becoming experts on the snow board. It was so fun to watch!