I debated whether or not I should post this photo. I do not want to boast about the things I have in my life. On the other hand, I am extremely blessed with a hard working husband who has the opportunity to surprise me with nice gifts because of the countless hours of overtime he puts in. AND, I am HAPPY! I am SURPRISED! I am beyond any words that can describe the amount of joy I have for my new hot tub!!!!!! Wow, just wow. I never expected this in a million years. The kids are just as excited!
Another birthday, another year, another reflection. The date has such an important meaning to our country that I often don't find time on that day to sit and complain about being another year older. Finally, I'm starting to feel like I am at a point in my life where I am just beginning to figure things out. I survived the newborn and toddler years. Josalyn is thankfully (thus far) making the teenage years enjoyable. Connor and Parker are showing signs of independence, accountability, some work ethic and most importantly compassion and love towards others. Nick has finished his masters degree and slowly regaining some free time. And then there's me.
In February, I took control of my health. I started holding myself accountable to long-term goals. No more crash dieting or quick fixes. This time is about consistency, longevity, and enjoyment. There are still bad days or even bad weekends. There are still days I fight the negative self-talk. There are days where I still wish I "looked" like someone else. But, there are more days that I make the right food choices and walk away from the bad. There are more days that I love myself and appreciate the work I put in. And there are more days I love those people that work hard and look amazing and channel the old jealous thoughts.
It's a process. I can look back and see progress from 10 months ago a lot easier than I can from 2 months ago. I can appreciate my journey.
I'm not the skinniest I've ever been. I can't run the fastest I've ever run. I can't even lift the heaviest I've lifted. That's okay.
I have my health and a healthy family. And good (knock on wood) children. I have the most sincere, honest, and fun group of friends. Not to mention a great career that I take pride in doing the work I do. I have a roof over my head, food on the table and now a HOT TUB where I can come home and relax!
I always regret not taking more time to blog. It's fun to look back on memories and re-read the journey. So, the challenge will be to try to keep up.
Here's to a a rocking and relaxing 35!
